so today i realized that im happy. i dont think i've felt happy much at all this year; i've just been constantly stressed or ignoring stress. today is different though, because i woke up and i was just happy. no stress. this feels unreal. do most people feel like this? is this what's normal? i want this feeling more.

i think a major cause of this happieness is because i started drawing. i often dont take breaks from my computer, and yes i know it's really bad and im trying to stop, but when i draw it's time away from the computer that i desprately need. even drawing on the computer is relaxing, because having my headphones off and just drawing disrupts the usual flow of constant stimulation from the internet.

i want to draw more. i love this.